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2020-08-30

I've Not Forgotten

"Dare not say that man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you."

2018-09-21

Echoes

Her perfume no longer lingers in the air

2018-08-30

Shores Of Forgiveness

There's not really any comfort in hearing someone tell you that she doesn't deserve you.

2018-08-26

Violence

Just when you think you've gotten used to it, something comes along to remind you.

2018-08-24

The Second Hand Ticks

Trying to be optimistic when I'd lost so much

2018-08-22

Poison and Wine

"Don't make God your enemy, it's a war you will never win."

2018-04-21

2018-03-29

Troubled Mind

So fucking tired of chasing things that I will never get.. So fucking tired of waiting for you to come back. Need to learn how to let go

2018-03-23

2018-03-20

A Plane Home

You can have her in your heart, but not in your arms. You can have her in all of your prayers, in every single one of your sujud, but you can't have her in your life.

2018-03-19

Long Reach

I know I should just leave her alone.. I shouldn't bother her anymore. I shouldn't get mad if she doesn't want to listen.

2018-03-17

Kingdom Come Deliverance

Don't be that idiot that asked God for a sign, but then ignore the sign.

2018-03-10

Didn't mean to lie to you.. It wasn't my intention to hurt you in any way. Just wanted to know if you would care if I leave. Would you care if I'm gone? Would it makes you sad if I leave? Would you miss me? By the looks of it, you don't.

2018-03-08

Built To Last

Tell me you don't want me no more, so I can let you go.

2018-03-07

Court Of Broken Knifes

"..And that's the difficult part, the traits you find most beautiful about the person you love become the things that are most painful to see after they're gone.. Even something as sweet as a smile can do an awful lot of damage when it comes from the person you yearn for."

2018-03-06

Fort Joy

They always do, don't they?

2018-03-05

Distorted Future

Tonight would probably be the last time I would be able to take her out. Hoping for more, but I know I shouldn't. It's not the right thing to do. She belongs to someone else.

2018-03-03

Ocean In You

Wrote her a letter.

2018-02-25

Wanting To Disappear Again

I have no place else to run away to this time.. Maybe I should just let the pain consume me all over again. Let it kill me once again. I'm tired of running away.. Tired of everything..

2018-02-23

Request

Asking God for happiness this year's birthday wish.. In whatever shape, in whatever form. Just wanna be happy again.. Like I used to. I know it's not a simple request, but I hope it will come true one day.. Please..

2018-02-22

Hateful God

I think I'm ready to deny what my heart wants.. If only God would say something, or give me a sign or anything. I think I'm ready to let go, to force myself to not have this feelings for her.

Standstill

"Even if it leads nowhere?"

2018-02-21

Erased

Really tired of feeling like this again and again.. I don't wanna feel like this ever again. I'm exhausted. Trying not to make a big deal out of it, but it's affecting everything. Can't sleep, can't eat, always wake up feeling tired and sluggish. Can't even do my work. I just wanna feel fine again..

2018-02-18

Grasping King

Was it a mistake trying to move on? Was it a mistake trying to forget the past? Was it a mistake trying to find someone else? Was it a mistake trying to be happy again? To feel alive again? Was it not the right thing to do? Why am I being punished for it? Is there a choice that will not hurt me? Can I have a moment of peace? Why does it feel like every choice I've made is the wrong one? I really do need Your help, Your guidance. I'm at a standstill.. And I wished to keep moving forward.

2018-02-17

Deep And Meaningless

"The depth of your love today will be the depth of your wound tomorrow.."

2018-02-15

Death Becomes Him

Every time I saw you, my heart wants to grab hold onto you. Every time I saw your face, my heart reaches out to you. It wants you so bloody much.. Trying so hard to deny what it wants. Forcing this heart of mine to let go and to forget. I'm trying girl.. Please give me a bit more time.

2018-02-13

Sinking Garden

Let her go Fish.. If you love her, then let her go.

2018-02-12

Familiar Feeling

Though it's not killing me anymore, it still hurts.

2018-02-11

Dear David

This heart is still capable of feeling pain..

2018-02-10

Bear The Brunt

Trying to go through this test, this pain better than I did before. Trying to accept whatever God had plan for me. Trying to be better. Trying to do better.