2016-02-10

Black Dress

Maybe she threw the dress away. She must have hated it so much.. Because it was from me, the dress was from me. But I really really want to see her wearing it.. Maybe one day I will get to see it..

2016-02-09

Jabal Rahmah

Here, on this hill. I whispered your name over and over again.. I prayed to God for you. Asking for another chance to be with you, another chance to make you smile, another chance to take care of you, another chance to wipe the tears off your face, another chance to give her my everything, and another chance to be the one for her. I want her back.. I want to love her again.. I know I'm asking a bit too much, but please.. Can I have her back God?

2016-01-29

Wolven Storm


"The wish I whispered, when it all began. Did it forge a love you might never have found?"

2016-01-28

Black Heart

I'm not the man I thought I was.. I thought I was her knight in shining armour. Maybe I'm the villain in this story.. Maybe I'm the dragon.. The one that cause her so much pain and suffering.. And maybe that guy is the knight that came to save her..

2016-01-27

Lilac Sweet

Mom really like you.. She really really like you. Guess that's why she doesn't mind spending that much on you.. I want to get married to you not just for me. But for my mom as well.. She always wanted someone who knows how to cook, good with children, and someone who knows how to do the chores.. And you have all of that. You could help take care of my mother when I'm not around. Help her with all the housework. I'm sorry ma.. I'm sorry I couldn't make her stay..

2016-01-12

Subversive

What's the point of loving her so much and the only thing she felt was pain and suffering. What's the point of being faithful and it only makes her wanna leave even more. It wasn't her fault that she chose to leave, the fault is all mine. My actions force her to leave..

2016-01-11

Solitude

Maybe I don't deserve this happiness..

2016-01-10

Infestation


Looking back at our memories together, all our pictures together used to put a smile on my face. Now I can't look at it without feeling regrets and despair. I wished I could go back and fix everything, undo all the bad things I've done to you, give you all my attention, treat you with respect, and never force you to do anything. I'm sorry Sayang I hurt you.. I'm sorry I gave you so much pain.. I'm sorry for making you wanna leave.. I did this to myself. Maybe I deserve this.. And maybe you don't deserve me, because you deserve better.. So much better. I'm sorry I treated you like this.. I'm sorry I stop treating you like a princess..

Nest

Every time she post stuff about going out with the new guy it kills me on the inside. It used to be me. I wished it was still me. I miss going out with her.. I miss discovering new places with her.. I miss it so much love.. 

2016-01-03

Echo

I hoped I would get the chance to see your face again for the very last time.. Hopefully it won't be the last time though. But asking for that seems too much, and I have been asking a lot lately.. I'm sorry God.. 

2015-12-21

Holy Land

I will be here next month, and I hope I will stay here forever.. It would be easier for her. No one is going to disturb her anymore.

2015-11-23

Radiation

Maybe that day will never come..

2015-11-04

Savings

I have this little tabung where I keep most of my money.. Well at first it doesn't have any writings on it. This tabung doesn't have any purpose back then.. I just keep most of my coins in here. It was you who gave this little guy a purpose. Every little dreams that you desired, every little things you want and need. I want to fulfill all those things.. You said you wanted to go to Langkawi, Cameron Highlands, Sabah/Sarawak, Korea. I'm saving some money to give you what you want. You said you wanted a female doctor when you are giving birth, so I'm saving some money so that I can afford to take you to a private hospital.. You want this, you want that, and I'll put even more money in it. I know it is not much, I can only put some change in here. But there are times where I put most of my money in here. There are times I sacrifice my lunch money so I would have more to save. I don't eat, I don't hang out with friends. I'm doing this so that I would have more to give to you, to fulfill everything that you have always wanted.. Everything is for you love.. I'm doing this all for you and not for myself. The only thing I would be getting from this is that beautiful smile of yours.. I should have told you about it, I should have told you all about my plans for us.. I really should have..

2015-11-03

Aeon

Can I have her back? Can I have my little princess back God.. Please..

2015-11-01

Deeds

I hope that one day God will tell or show how much I love you, how much I care about you..

2015-10-27

Between Us

If he knew what have we done together, will he still want you? 

2015-10-26

Foster

I wished you the best of all this world could give, all the happiness the world could give. But sometimes I wished that all you found was heartbreaks and sadness.. And you will come back to me one day.. 

2015-10-25

Xel'Naga


If you see her, could you tell her that I miss her so much? Could you tell her that I love her? Could you tell her that I'm still waiting for her? Could you tell her that I'm thinking about her every second of every day? Please just tell her something.. I miss her so..

2015-10-12

Overload

Maybe she has forgotten me..

2015-10-10

Princess's Birthday

I waited the whole night for you to say something.. For you to say anything.. A simple thank you would suffice.. I guess you didn't like the gift I gave to you. I'm sorry..

2015-09-06

Thank You

Give me death..

2015-08-30

Bird House

Today supposed to be our second anniversary..

2015-08-09

Monologue

She was mine..

2015-08-07

Knife Me

Maybe I'm not meant to be happy.. Maybe I'm gonna spend the rest of my life alone

Gonzo

I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't think

2015-08-02

Heavenly

It is nice to finally get to see her face again.. It has been too long. I miss her so much.. I wish time would just stop, so I could just stare at her beauty. I miss her, I miss her so much.. God I miss her.. I need to see her again.. I just miss her too much.

2015-07-27

Something About This Rain

You brought me out of this hell just to put me back in there..

2015-07-11

Winterhold

Maybe if I pray hard enough, then she will come back..

2015-07-06

Lord Of Pain

She's worth the wait..

2015-06-30

Roses

I know I can treat you better, please give me another chance dear.. Please believe me..

Harbinger

I want to see you.. I need to see your face again. It has been too long.. I need to see you love.. I miss you so much. I need to see your smile again..

2015-06-26

Salvador

Mom really like her.. It would break my mom's heart if we didn't make it, it's gonna break my heart as well. She is already like a daughter to her.. I hope all of this is just a test for me.

2015-06-23

Never Coming Home

I'm running out of words to say to her.. What should I say to convince her? What should I do to make her stay? I just don't know what else to do now.. I tried so hard to convince her to stay, but she wouldn't listen to me.. But please believe in my words love.. Please have faith in me. I spoke the truth, every word. There are not just empty words.. What I said to you, I meant it. Please trust me love.. Please..

2015-06-22

Ano

People said that I'm getting skinny, I'm losing weight. I guess its happening again.. I have lost my appetite. Feel like throwing up most of the time.. God I hate this. I thought I will never feel like this anymore

2015-06-15

Ne Me Quitte Pas

It hurts so much..

2015-06-14

Packed Snow

There is so many things I wanna do together with you. I really want to learn to cook with you.. I would probably get scold a lot by you.. Hehe. But I really wanna it though. Making kuih raya, any kind of desserts, or experimenting new recipes.. I know you like to clean the house, it is like a hobby to you.. So I want to do that with you too. We could clean the house together, and I can finally have someone to help me wash my car.. It is easier to wash when you have someone. I would do all the heavy stuff and you can do the easy stuff.. I'll sweep the floor, hang our clothes, wash the dishes. But I want to fold our clothes together.. You fold mine, I fold yours. We can see who can finish first. Gardening wouldn't be a bad thing to do together.. Hiking, cycling and more of those outdoor activities. Kinda miss our little badminton session we used to have.. Watching movies together.. Going for a trip together.. Do everything together with you.. Or just do nothing together.. I wish I could have more time with you..

Stalker

She taught me how beautiful love can be, and also how painful it can be..

2015-06-12

Quinn

I guess this year's Raya I won't be celebrating with you.. You have someone new to celebrate with. 

2015-06-11

The One-Eyed Man

I want to be the one who would save her from Dajjal 

2015-06-10

Token

God I hope it is still not too late..

Freya

Terima kasih cinta..

2015-06-09

Late Night Conversation

I can't stop talking to God about you, everything about you.. I like talking to Him about you. The way you talk, the way you walk, what you like to eat, the faces you give when you are angry, sad or happy.. And the list goes on and on. He probably already knew everything about you, but I just want to thanked Him for making you who you are.. You are His most beautiful creation.

Severus Snape

No matter what happens in the future, I will always love you.. Even if we were never meant to be together, I will always love you.. You will always be in my heart love. I promised to love you till the day I die. I promised to never ever give up on you, I swear that I will never forget the love that we shared. I will always keep all those memories close to my heart, no matter how painful it can be. I don't want to forget about us, and I hope you won't forget about me too.. I will always pray for your happiness even if you were to marry someone else, its the least I could do.. I promised to you love, I will never stop praying for you.. I promised to love you even if we were never meant to be. Always sayang, always..

"Love is not about possession, love is about appreciation.."

2015-06-08

If Only You Knew

If only you knew how sincere I am in loving you.. I want to be with you no matter what. I want to be by your side during both the good and the bad time. I love you not because of my desire, I love you not because of your beauty, I love you not because of the promised wealth.. But I love you because of God. I want to be the one to guide you, to take care of you, to be responsible for every action you make, to love you with all my heart. If only you knew how much I will sacrifice just to make you smile..

2015-06-07

Juggernaut

Please don't be in love with someone else.. Please Sayang.. 

Mess

My life is a mess right now..