I will be here next month, and I hope I will stay here forever.. It would be easier for her. No one is going to disturb her anymore.
2015-12-21
2015-11-23
2015-11-04
Savings
I have this little tabung where I keep most of my money.. Well at first it doesn't have any writings on it. This tabung doesn't have any purpose back then.. I just keep most of my coins in here. It was you who gave this little guy a purpose. Every little dreams that you desired, every little things you want and need. I want to fulfill all those things.. You said you wanted to go to Langkawi, Cameron Highlands, Sabah/Sarawak, Korea. I'm saving some money to give you what you want. You said you wanted a female doctor when you are giving birth, so I'm saving some money so that I can afford to take you to a private hospital.. You want this, you want that, and I'll put even more money in it. I know it is not much, I can only put some change in here. But there are times where I put most of my money in here. There are times I sacrifice my lunch money so I would have more to save. I don't eat, I don't hang out with friends. I'm doing this so that I would have more to give to you, to fulfill everything that you have always wanted.. Everything is for you love.. I'm doing this all for you and not for myself. The only thing I would be getting from this is that beautiful smile of yours.. I should have told you about it, I should have told you all about my plans for us.. I really should have..
2015-11-03
2015-11-01
2015-10-27
2015-10-26
Foster
I wished you the best of all this world could give, all the happiness the world could give. But sometimes I wished that all you found was heartbreaks and sadness.. And you will come back to me one day..
2015-10-25
Xel'Naga
If you see her, could you tell her that I miss her so much? Could you tell her that I love her? Could you tell her that I'm still waiting for her? Could you tell her that I'm thinking about her every second of every day? Please just tell her something.. I miss her so..
2015-10-12
2015-10-10
Princess's Birthday
I waited the whole night for you to say something.. For you to say anything.. A simple thank you would suffice.. I guess you didn't like the gift I gave to you. I'm sorry..
2015-09-06
2015-08-30
2015-08-09
2015-08-07
2015-08-02
Heavenly
It is nice to finally get to see her face again.. It has been too long. I miss her so much.. I wish time would just stop, so I could just stare at her beauty. I miss her, I miss her so much.. God I miss her.. I need to see her again.. I just miss her too much.
2015-07-27
2015-07-11
2015-07-06
2015-06-30
2015-06-26
Salvador
Mom really like her.. It would break my mom's heart if we didn't make it, it's gonna break my heart as well. She is already like a daughter to her.. I hope all of this is just a test for me.
2015-06-23
Never Coming Home
I'm running out of words to say to her.. What should I say to convince her? What should I do to make her stay? I just don't know what else to do now.. I tried so hard to convince her to stay, but she wouldn't listen to me.. But please believe in my words love.. Please have faith in me. I spoke the truth, every word. There are not just empty words.. What I said to you, I meant it. Please trust me love.. Please..
2015-06-22
Ano
People said that I'm getting skinny, I'm losing weight. I guess its happening again.. I have lost my appetite. Feel like throwing up most of the time.. God I hate this. I thought I will never feel like this anymore
2015-06-15
2015-06-14
Packed Snow
There is so many things I wanna do together with you. I really want to learn to cook with you.. I would probably get scold a lot by you.. Hehe. But I really wanna it though. Making kuih raya, any kind of desserts, or experimenting new recipes.. I know you like to clean the house, it is like a hobby to you.. So I want to do that with you too. We could clean the house together, and I can finally have someone to help me wash my car.. It is easier to wash when you have someone. I would do all the heavy stuff and you can do the easy stuff.. I'll sweep the floor, hang our clothes, wash the dishes. But I want to fold our clothes together.. You fold mine, I fold yours. We can see who can finish first. Gardening wouldn't be a bad thing to do together.. Hiking, cycling and more of those outdoor activities. Kinda miss our little badminton session we used to have.. Watching movies together.. Going for a trip together.. Do everything together with you.. Or just do nothing together.. I wish I could have more time with you..
2015-06-12
2015-06-11
2015-06-10
2015-06-09
Late Night Conversation
I can't stop talking to God about you, everything about you.. I like talking to Him about you. The way you talk, the way you walk, what you like to eat, the faces you give when you are angry, sad or happy.. And the list goes on and on. He probably already knew everything about you, but I just want to thanked Him for making you who you are.. You are His most beautiful creation.
Severus Snape
No matter what happens in the future, I will always love you.. Even if we were never meant to be together, I will always love you.. You will always be in my heart love. I promised to love you till the day I die. I promised to never ever give up on you, I swear that I will never forget the love that we shared. I will always keep all those memories close to my heart, no matter how painful it can be. I don't want to forget about us, and I hope you won't forget about me too.. I will always pray for your happiness even if you were to marry someone else, its the least I could do.. I promised to you love, I will never stop praying for you.. I promised to love you even if we were never meant to be. Always sayang, always..
"Love is not about possession, love is about appreciation.."
2015-06-08
If Only You Knew
If only you knew how sincere I am in loving you.. I want to be with you no matter what. I want to be by your side during both the good and the bad time. I love you not because of my desire, I love you not because of your beauty, I love you not because of the promised wealth.. But I love you because of God. I want to be the one to guide you, to take care of you, to be responsible for every action you make, to love you with all my heart. If only you knew how much I will sacrifice just to make you smile..
2015-06-07
2015-05-23
Samus
I'm beginning to lose the joy of life, everything looks dark and pathetic. I just can't see the light anymore.. This place looks familiar though, maybe I have been here before.. I hate this place.
2015-05-22
Rogue Knight
I have betrayed the trust of my princess. I have broke her heart.. And I even broke my own heart in the process.
2015-05-21
Darth Revan
"Why do you always forget that I'm here for you. You can't run away from me.. I'm always here for you.."
2015-05-20
2015-05-19
Hyperion Team
Please don't be in love with someone else, please don't have someone waiting for you, please don't ever leave me again.
I Am Fire
I hope she keeps reading the letters I wrote for her, I hope she cherish all of them. It wasn't easy for me to write them all, it wasn't easy for me to express my feelings in mere words.. But there's still things I can't express them in words. I need to see her, I need the talk. I need her to know. I need the chance to tell her everything in person.. The things I should have said, the things I shouldn't have said, the things I should have done, the things I shouldn't have done, the things I'm going to do for her, the things that I have done for her.. I hope I get the chance. I hope she reads this.. I just want you to know that I love you with all my heart, I swear to God. For God's sake I love you Sayang.. I really do. Please hear me out love.. Please..
"Cross my heart and hope to die.."
2015-05-06
2015-05-01
Sleeping Field
I feel so heavy.. I don't have the will to do anything anymore. I can't focus on my studies, I can't do shit. My heart is just not in it.. I have always known that I'm going to be a failure. Maybe I was right all along.. Too fucking stupid to do anything. A disappointment to my mother, probably the biggest disappointment to her.
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