Oppressor

If only the easy way out of this mess doesn't send you straight to hell..

Fireborn

Today was supposed to be our anniversary, the real one. You told me that you love me on this date years ago. So I guess happy anniversary love..

On His Throne

God doesn't have to prove that He is fair, though sometimes I wished He would..

Nightfall

Another shitty Raya. It's just not the same without you.. I miss us love.. I miss how things used to be.

Blue Dreamer

I don't want something better, I don't want something perfect. Just want things to stay the way it is.. Just want it to be how it used to be. Was that too much to ask for?

Yoel Of Londor

Used to get excited when Ramadhan comes, not this year I guess.

On Borrowed Time

Went to Carl's Jr. today and for the life of me I couldn't even finish one burger. Remember back then? We went to Carl's Jr. with your friend? I could almost finish two sets of whatever we bought that day. Now I could only eat like half a burger then I'm done. I was fasting as well today, thought I could at the very least finish one set.. I guess without you I can't be like I used to. Besides, kuat makan has always been your trait.. And I just borrowed it. 

Peace

Just gotta take one day at a time.. Really wished it was as easy as it sounds.

Fight

Not everyone will learn from their pain I guess..

Everyone Else Disappears

For someone who got cheated on, never knew you would do the same..

Maha Adil

Though God doesn't have to prove to me that He is fair, sometimes I wished He would..

An Old Path

Taubat used to be when I would say sorry, Dhuha used to be when I would say thank you.. But now every prayers is just me begging to God to give back everything He took from me. Every prayers feels like I'm doing Hajat. The last time I said Alhamdulilah with a big smile on my face was back when I was happy.. Back when you were still here. 

Goodbye Moonmen

Stopped praying for a week just to see whether if I might be one of those people. People that doesn't pray but God still give them everything.. Istidraj' is the word, however you spell it. I guess I'm not one of those people, since I felt more miserable when I intentionally skipped all those obligations. I guess I'm one of those people whose life gets hard when you stop praying, and life gets even harder when you pray. It's going to be a long night.. A week worth of prayers I have to cover back.

Self-Accusation

I have only a couple of regrets in this life, but those few regrets are the ones that matters. Those few are the ones that is killing me every single day..

Burnt Out

I'm sorry buddy.. I'm sorry I felt this way. I can hide those feelings, but I know that's not the truth.

Lost Family

Took my nephew to the park the other day, because I had to watch him for a couple of hours. The look in his face, his smile, his laughter brings joy to your heart but at the end of the day he brought me more pain than comfort.. Because I know I would never have something like that. So I stopped doing all of those things. I stopped playing with him, I stopped taking him to the playground.. Because it hurts, it hurts so much. Never would have thought that hearing your nephew's laughter and giggles would break the heart.

Raven Fall

Once they have gone through the bullshit they put you through, only then you'll know that they are truly sorry for what they did. Once they have felt what you feel, once they have suffered as you have.. Only then their apology meant something.

4 Worlds

Had a dream about the past last night.. And when I woke up, I immediately try to find my phone. That's when reality drags you back to the real world.. Because the last time I touched that phone was 6 months ago, give or take a few weeks. Maybe the next time that dream comes I would know which one is the truth

Suicide Note

Got really angry that night. What else should I do when talking to God only made it worst.. Only made you even angrier. 

Cursed Wind

Please teach your daughter to never be the reason why someone would stop believing in love. Teach her to not be like you. Teach her to always be loyal and faithful. 

Angel Of Mercy

Lost the way home..

Sogni D'Oro

You are only good as your last deeds.

Search Of Dreams

I guess I won the "I love you more" game..

Epilogue

Those antidepressant doesn't seems to work.. Maybe this body is immune to it or I needed a higher dose of it.

Obliviate

There goes someone I would never see again.. I should probably get used to it. Now there's only one left. How long will this one last? She's not getting any younger..

Everlasting Curse

I once believed that you were sent here to me to break the curse.. Never would have thought that you were part of this curse.

Immortals

Maybe I asked too much and I gave too little. 

Sun Dancer

Have you ever looked at someone doing something and you say to yourself, "She used to do that a lot." Then you started to see a bit of her in everyone you sees. If only I could harvest those traits and build my own you.

If I Needed You

A person who smokes, drinks, goes clubbing and fools around has God in his heart, and you don't. At that point you knew that you have sunk so deep in depression. That person may not be doing all the right things, but at the very least he still got God in his heart. From my point of view he's doing a lot better than me. 

Void Page 3

I'm at my emptiest.

An Old Magic

Have never been the first to let go.. But always the one that keeps holding on.

Tanzanite

"..But I have to go.. I'm sorry.."

Dormant

It's kinda funny that you're the most religious one in the family and at the same time you hated God the most.

Consolation

You ask for forgiveness during the night, but through out the day you curse this life, you curse His plans, you curse His name..

Love Less

This is what it feels like to lose faith in God. Not in your religion, but just Him. You still do what you are commanded to do. You still worship Him, you still pray to Him.. But most of the time you do all those things with so much hate, with so much anger in your heart. 

Nephilim

The very best thing in life is also the most painful memory to reminisce.

Assuage

Life was indeed an adventure when you're around..

Rewrite History

A life where you never left.. That's just something that would never happen now. Tried so hard to relive that dream again each and every night. That's the world I would want to live in. If only I would never have to wake up ever again.. If only I could just leave this stupid reality.

On Winter's Night

They said that if you're having a dream of someone, that means that particular someone is missing you.. If it's true, why would you? Because it's you almost every night. Wished it was true though.. But something that good can't never be the truth. Just another bullshit you would want to believe when you are out of hope I guess..

Beneath My Soul

"Hoping that one day you'll come home to me.. Because I'm tired of being lost."

The Beat The Rhythm

"By sheer circumstances he was bonded to her.. And look at how far he went for her."

Refuse

10,000 is a lot of money and I would lose some of the dividend annually if I took out that kind of amount. The only reason I agreed to it because I was hoping that God will help me.. God will finally grant me my wish. At this point I wonder what would I give, what would I sacrifice for that wish. Lent 500 to a friend, and now 10,000 to a family. What more do I have to do so that God will hear me out?

Forbidden Memories

"You broke him, he apologized."

Lost Light

What better way to break a man than to do it on his birthday. So every year he will be reminded of what he lost that day.

By Fire

I would be lying if I told you that I wasn't waiting the whole day for you to wish me..

Blood On Ice

In your own shitty little world.