Dematerialized

I would rather see you dead than to lose you to someone else. At least I could visit your grave from time to time. I could still talk to you.. I could still see you. If I ever miss you, I could just go and visit your new home. I could recite surah al-fatihah to you, I could recite surah yasin for you. It hurts missing you so much and I can't do anything about it. I couldn't talk to you, I couldn't see you. Wished you were dead sayang..