Past Life

I wished you would stay till the bitter end.. You will stay no matter how hard it is to be with me. We could be so happy right now.. I had all plan out. I don't want to tell you my plans, I want to show it to you. I have even found a nice small house in Melaka for us. It's a new housing area I think. I thought we could live together there.. Start our own life together. Start from zero. We could build our home together.. I thought you want that? Every month we will get a new furniture for our house.. It might get rough early on. But I know we will survived.. I guess he must be so rich that you will give me up just like that. You were willing to throw your dignity for wealth. I thought you were different love.. I thought you don't care about those things.

Urban Warfare

"Love her unconditionally.."

Fast

It hurts when you refused to give me a second chance, it hurts so much when you refused to start over.. I just don't know what has happened to you. Why have you changed so much? Is it because of his wealth? I thought you don't care about that.. What happened to you? I didn't know you could be so cruel.. Maybe I should be cruel to you too. Maybe I should hurt you as much as you have hurt me, I should blackmail you.. Maybe I should do that to you.. Maybe I should hurt you back as well.

Necromancer

I don't deserve this pain.. I don't deserve this pain.. I don't deserve this pain.

Everything Else

Not just the letters.. Everything else I gave to you, everything else I did for you. They all meant nothing too I guess. You never appreciate the things I do for you anyway.. Because to you, I'm just another worthless piece of shit. Just another maniac, hot-headed piece of shit. To you I only want sex and nothing else. I came to you only when I need to fulfill my desires. That's all I am to you.. That's what you see in me now. 

Poster Boy

I guess all the letters I gave to you meant nothing huh?

Forehead Kisses

When your lips pressed against my cheeks.. When your lips rest on my neck.. And when your lips met mine.

Into The Void

I hope you could sleep at night knowing how much I've suffered because of you.

A Way Back Home

"To miss something is the heart's way of reminding you to not give up on something or someone, a reminder that there is always a way home."

The Last One Awake

Once.. She felt the same. 

Once.. She used to smile at the thought of me. 

Once.. She couldn't live without me. 

Once.. I was her everything.

But now, she takes back everything she said..

Never Enough

One of us found something better..

Wolf

Saying goodbye when you are still madly deeply in love with her is tough. 

The Devil's Proposal

If the devil suddenly appear before me and try to strike a deal with me, I would probably say yes. In this situation I would probably say yes.. I don't think I can endure it anymore. It hurt so much. I will do anything to get out of this hell hole. Even make a deal with the devil..

Jason

The more I pray, the harder life gets..

Bloody Baron

If you could see me now.. You will see how much I have lost weight. If you could see me without my shirt on, you can see almost all of my ribs. I'm all skin and bones now, no meat.. I would probably get gastric soon. I have lost my appetite to eat anything.. I can't even finish half a plate of rice. What have I become.. You really really broke me my dear..

Demon Souls

Mom's right.. I have no soul anymore. Just another dead man walking..

Icy Beach

No matter how much pain you have caused me, this heart will never hate you. There is none of it.. Only love I have for you.

Sacrilege

Are you happy now that you have finally broke me? Tell me my dear, does it bring joy to see me fall? To see me suffer? What does it feels like to break someone that loves you so much? Are you happy now? Does the pain you have caused me satisfied you? Or do you want to see more? Don't worry, God will break me even more, because He is going to take little daim from me.. Are you glad that I am suffering every single day? Does it feel good when you broke my heart? When you hurt me? When you betray my trust? When you destroy the unending love I gave to you? So tell me my sweet little princess.. Are you happy now?

The Colour Purple

She made me love this colour.. It is a beautiful colour my dear.. And every time I see this colour I am reminded of her. I haven't seen this colour the same since. You made purple my favourite colour sayang..

Grieve

Do you ever talk to God about me? Have you ever prayed to God for me? 

Go Back

But that dream was nigh impossible for this little boy to capture it.. He wasn't good enough. He wasn't good enough for her..

Scared Of The Light

She was more than I could ever have dreamed..

Monte Cristo

"God will give me justice."

4 Horsemen

Sometimes I make weird noises to make myself laugh. I tell myself a joke to cheer myself up.. I'm so pathetic right love? Well you did this to me..

Surfacing

If the devil were to make a proposal to me, I think I might say yes. The situation that I am in, I might just say yes.. I'm at my most vulnerable state right now I guess.

Ghost Drone

I gotta be a bit more patient.. God will give me what I asked for. 

Dreadnought

I want to feel safe again.. I want to feel safe in your arms again. I miss the warmth feelings you gave to me. I know I can handle the world with you next to me.. I can take whatever the world throws at me. I feel like I could conquer life itself.. But now I can't even sleep at night. I'll get exhausted easily. The lies I told myself every single day just to give myself some hope, like a bit of joy, something to look forward to. The lies I told myself so that I could survive another day without breaking apart. The lies I told my heart that one day you will return. That lie is what keeps me sane these days..

New Again

I wished we could start over again.. Forget about the past and just start fresh. I want to re-learn all the things I know about you, the things I have never forget, and I will never forget. Re-create new memories based on the old memories. Forge back the dying love, learn to love again. A second chance.. Don't I deserve a second chance sayang? After all that I've sacrificed for you, don't I at least deserve another chance? You gave him a second chance when he cheated on you.. Why can't I? I have never done something like that.. I have never caused you so much pain. I have never broke your heart. But why you didn't give me a second chance? Wasn't I good enough for you? 

Backstab Practice

I trusted you.. I thought you were different from the others. I trusted you dear.. I really did.

Beauties In The Past

I have read all of our messages over and over again. I just miss you so much dear. I miss us..

Hallway

Fuck 2015. Fuck 2016.

Pony

Love it when she does her hair like that..

Fallout Shelter

Maybe in here we could finally be together..

Hands

I find her most beautiful on her worst days..

London's Garden

I just want you to know that no matter how mad I am at you, no matter how angry you made me, or no matter how much I feel like hating you.. My love is always stronger. After all you are a very annoying chubby little princess. Even when I'm so mad at you, I always feel like hugging you a few seconds later. I can't be mad at you for long.. Because I like to pujuk you when you are sad, when you started to cry. That's when I can hug you, wipe your tears, hingus semua.. Hehe. You're just like a child princess.. Macam budak kecik. But it is very hard to pujuk you when I'm so far away, you know how sweet I can be when we are together kan? How I pujuk you when you are sad and stuff.. Because you can see my face,  how sorry I am. You can hear my voice, how it always calms you when I speak softly. You can feel my touch, how I caress both your body and soul. This distance makes me bitter. I can't stand being away from you for so long. I need you close, I need you here with me..

Volcanic Dream

Might as well set me on fire love..

Then You Will Die

You are my reflection.. And I'm yours. Well I used to be your reflection.. You are becoming more like me, and I'm becoming more like you. But maybe now you are becoming more like him..

Dumb

I call you just to hear you sing Dumb Ways To Die.. You have such beautiful voice my dear. It's very soothing. I miss hearing your voice.. I just want to hear your voice again. Wish you were still mine so I can maybe call you every day just to hear you talk, just to hear you sing, or just to hear you membebel.. I miss your voice Sayang.. I really do. Can I hear your voice again? I don't mind if it's a video or a voice note.. I just want to hear the voice of an angel. My favourite melody.. Can I hear your voice again Princess?

The Alpha

I know I can't force people to love, I can't force you to love me again. I realised that. But I can try can't I? I can only try to make you love me again. Just like I can't forced you to love me, you can't forced me to stop loving you. You can't forced me to stop caring about you. 

Eagle Eye

I read all of our messages. On Facebook, on Twitter, on Whatsapp, on Skype. Even all of our sms, back when you were still using your Celcom number or is it Digi number. We talked like a married couple, we fought like one, we flirted, all of our dirty jokes. We were a bunch of horny kids back then.. Haha. 

Onimusha

Have you forgotten about us dear? Have you forgotten all of our memories? Tell me Sayang..

Dragon Ball

I love her.. I'm in love with her soul.

Breather

I could never hurt you the way you hurt me. Even if I got the chance to treat you the way you treated me, I would never hurt you. I'm willing to forgive all of your past mistakes, I'll forget everything you ever did to me. I'll forgive and forget.. We can start anew.. Leave everything behind us. But would you do the same for me? The way things are now, I don't think you could do it..

Tropical Structure

Would you read it love? Would you read it if I wrote a book about us?

Forms Of Love

I feel like writing a book about you, about us. I have written a few notes about it.. Maybe one day I would be able to publish it. But it is for your eyes only.. You will have the only copy of this book. Well InsyaAllah.. You have given me so much, you have given me all of you. I want you to know how much I appreciate it.. I would love to write our story. It could be the greatest love story ever! Hehe

Fall Harder

"I never want to see you unhappy, and I thought you'd want the same for me.."