Miserable At Best

Fuck 2016

Labyrinth

I will always find myself at your door no matter where I go, or whichever road I took, I will always end up in the same place. Wished that you're still there, wished that you were still in your room, wished that you'd still miss me. 

Nigh Inseparable

If only you could feel the pain that you've caused me.. You will hate me, and you will be disgusted at the though of me. The love you had for me will just fade and it won't grow stronger each and every day. You will stop hoping that I would change my mind and just come back to you. You will curse my name.. If only you could feel what I have felt, you will never be the same person ever again.

Of His Former Self

When your mother told you that you're no longer her favourite son. One of the sharpest knife I have ever felt.. I'm already in great pain, why not just go all the way, no? Well I deserved that actually. Your son might never come back because he found solace in the darkest part of his heart. Maybe something else will rise from his ashes, something worst probably.

I Will Be Here, Forever

If only one of us could be happy in this world, I'm glad that God chose you. Wished both of us could be happy together.. Maybe I'm asking too much I guess.

Last Glimpse

"Distant hearts, when rejoined as one.. May find the lost light within."

Edge Of Madness

"One of the hardest things you will ever have to do is to grieve the loss of a person who is still alive.."

Exiled

I'm afraid my love for you will always be there.. I'm sorry

Howl

No matter how soft the bed is, you can't seem to find comfort. Food doesn't taste as good as it used to.. Everything you do just doesn't feel right. Your days keeps on getting dull and empty. I guess this is what it feels like when you lose His grace, His blessings. 

The Last December

It's has been almost a year now..

Ouija

These nightmares are getting worse..

Of Escape And Near Misses

It might not be as painful as being in hell but it sure does hurt like one..

The World Went Away

Should have listened to your father and just gotten myself a job. I would probably still be happy right now. I should have just listened.

Illusive One

"When dreams turn to dust and life becomes a burden."

Southside

Do whatever makes you happy no? 

School Zone

I'm not a quitter, but today I am. I know I got only one sem left, but what's the point of continuing if your heart's no longer in it. Maybe I should learn how to quit more in life.

Part Two

I wouldn't mind starting over if it's with you. I would do it all over again. I will choose you still.. I would go through all of the pain again. Every time.

Hush

The one thing I learned from my father was never betray the ones you loved.. It wasn't like we had a man-to-man kind of talk. It was through his actions that I learned about betrayal and how it affects the other half.. Because I've seen what it did to my mother. How painful it was to her, how love destroys her and her faith. I've seen it and now I felt it. I waited for my father to come home when I was a kid, but he never did. I hope this time it would be different. I hope she would come home soon. It has been a while now.. 

Withstand

I was one of the few men out there that survived after calling the woman we loved fat. It wasn't pretty in the beginning of our relationship. Had to stay up late trying to convince my chubby princess she isn't fat.. Even if she was, I would still her the same nonetheless. But after I kept on teasing you, jokingly calling you fat, mentioning those "meaty" body parts no longer affects you. We got so comfortable together that I couldn't care less about all those physical features.. In a good way of course. Because you know that I would never leave you even if you gained a few pounds, or wrinkles starts to appear. Because you know I would stay no matter what. I fell in love with whats on the inside first and I've loved you ever since princess peha besar. :)

House Broken

You deserve the best.. And I'm sorry I wasn't always. But I tried, I really did. Wished it was enough though..

Soul Prison

I wouldn't mind if you were my last, well I hoped that you will be the last one.. And I want you to know that I'm glad that you were my first. Thank you for giving me a shot at love. I wouldn't know how love feels if you hadn't given me a chance. Thank you sayang..

Lady Luck

Your absence makes my heart grows fonder, my absence makes you forgetful.

Blight

I guess it's true when I said I can't live without you. I am alive but only on the outside. I am alive but I'm not actually living.

Shelter

I want to disappear.

Impossible Love

I regret that I didn't love you better..

Men Go To Battle

To people like us, death is a beautiful thing. You could even say it is a blessing.

Moon 8

"To be apart from a part of you.."

Winter Space

How could I forget.. 

Seek Aid

You said you wouldn't come back, but then again.. You once told me that you wouldn't leave.

What We Deserve

I guess this is how it feels like to lose hope. This is how it feels like to give up.

Addictum

I gave you something for your birthday. It would be waiting for you at home.. Well if your mother doesn't throw it away that is. It is something I know you would like. Remember that one night I came to your house, you gave me this thing from your balcony and that thing hit my face. Can you remember love?

Mass Recall

The bad dreams makes you never want to sleep again and the good ones makes you want to keep on dreaming and never wanting to wake up.

Antiga Prime

Had a good dream today.. But it was only a dream. Wished it was real though..

Soul Journey

"Take a man's life and that's it, he's gone.. But if you take his soul, you get to watch him die every single day."

Made Of Steel

Prayed for death so much that God decided to give me nightmares every time I sleep so I can die every single day. Well at the very least I got what I asked for.

Ever Since

I fell in love with you back when you were a complete mess, and I've loved you ever since..

Unrequited Love

Do you know what it is like to wake up and losing interest in life?

Our Legacy

Happy Birthday princess..

Altruism

"They will point out every single one of your mistakes when they have someone else."

I guess that's true.. Because that's what happened to me. She blamed me for everything. The pain that I felt is my own damn fault. There's no one to blame but me. I did this to myself. She didn't know that I tried so fucking hard to change my way, to control my anger, my lust. I'm trying so hard to make amends for all the things I've done wrong. I hope one day you would be able to see that.

Burning Daylight

One of our friends needed some money, and I lend her some. Didn't do it because I care. I did it because I was hoping that God will see it. I was hoping that God will help me in return, maybe God will grant me that one wish. Been helping people for that reason lately. Not because I care. Maybe I was just being selfish.. And maybe I should. I used the money that I kept for us, I hope you don't mind.

Dune City

Had to say goodbye to someone I want to spend my whole life with.

In Another Life

"Never planned that one day I'd be losing you..."

Caress

I miss your touch..

Neverland

This is how I want to remember you..

Hegira

I had you to escape from my bad days.. Now I don't know where to go to feel good again. Sometimes I wish I could just run away from everything, but I don't have a place to run away to. If only I got the money to just get a place somewhere in this world..

Hello Autumn

If only there's a way for me to lie to myself.. I can lie to the whole world, and maybe even God. I could say that I'm perfectly fine. I could act, pretend that I'm fine. But I'm sicked of pretending. I'm so fucking tired of pretending.