Hellgate London

Sampai syurga right dear? InsyaAllah..

Sinclair

Alhamdulilah she is happy.. Always want her to happy.

Beaut

Well good for her I guess..

Claire

One of us is happy, and the other one is in pain.

Wayfarer

"For you.. I would do it a thousand times over"

Ami

Weak

Sane

"Aku redha dengan ujian ini, aku redha dengan pemergiannya.."

I've said it over a thousand times.. But the heart still longs for you. This heart still can't accept the fact that you no longer love him. That you have found a better heart to love.. This heart of mine still loves you dear, he still cares about you.. He misses you so much dear. He's just like a child who has just lost someone dear to him, and he can't accept the fact that they won't be coming back..

This Doubt

I cried the whole day today.. In my sleep, while I'm the shower, when I was sitting down doing nothing, when I take a walk outside, when I go through all of our pictures together, when I'm about to break my fast, In my prayers, even while I'm writing this.. I miss you so love, I miss us. I'm sorry I messaged you twice today.. I don't know why I wanted to talk to you so badly. It hurts you know? It hurts not being able to talk to you anymore, it hurts not being able to see you again, to know how was your day, what you had during your breakfast, lunch and dinner. It hurts so much not being able to know how you feel or how you fare today. It hurts so much knowing that I no longer be able to wish you good morning or goodnight. It hurts so much I can never say that I love you anymore.. It hurts so much dear. here I am wondering what I did wrong to deserve this, was my past sin so bad that it brought me here today. Did I ever hurt someone this bad, did I ever cause someone so much pain before? Sakit Ya Allah.. It hurts so much Ya Allah..

Moon Mice

Please don't take this feelings away from me Ya Allah.. I don't care how much it hurts, InsyaAllah I can take it. I have seen her in love with another man, I have seen her in the arms of another man. So please Ya Allah.. Please allow me to continue to love her, continue to sayang her, continue to take care of her. Whenever she made a mistake, allow me to tegur her.. I don't want to stop loving her. Please don't punish me for loving her, I know she is with someone now.. But please don't punish me because I couldn't stop looking out for her, please don't punish me because I still care so much about her well being.. Allow me to keep her in my heart. Make this love last forever. Make this love stays in my heart till Jannah..

Death Wish

I was so busy praying for her happiness day and night that I forgot to pray for my own. Allah answered my prayers, she's happy now.. And if I truly love her, I should be happy for her as well.

Gwent

There will always be a place for you in my heart. For now, and for evermore..

Rights

All the sacrifices that I've made.. I hope you won't ever forget about that. Please don't forget Sayang.. Don't ever forget all of my sacrifices. What I have gone through to make you happy, what I have to do to fulfill all of your wishes. I know I should have done a lot better. I know what I did its not much, just please don't forget everything that I did for you.. From all the little things that I did to all the big things. Remember that one night you said you were hungry and it was raining? I walked under the rain to buy you some maggi. That one day you said you feel like eating seafood, and I was sick at that time? Body and mind said no, but my heart said yes. So I brought you to Kuala Perlis.. We had our expensive meal by the seaside. Didn't know it was going to be that expensive.. Nasib baik jadi Komander. Hehe. You said you wanted a big teddy bear, so I bought you one.. I hope you didn't throw Danny away.. Every time during your special week, I will always buy you desserts, I will bring you with me for a drive. Just a drive to nowhere.. So I can take care of you. So I will be there by your side when you want to complain how much it hurts. Please don't forget all those things, please don't forget what we have gone through together. Please don't forget about me, about us.. I'm so scared that you will one day forget about me.. Please don't forget Sayang..

Both

Maybe I'm just being selfish now.. So tell me dear, is this me? Am I the one that hurt you the most and at the same time love you the most as well?

Her Words 2.0

You were not being fair love.. Don't you remember how long it takes for me to hear you say that? How long I waited for you to say you love me too? How much I sacrificed? What I have gone through to finally hear you say that? You are not being fair to me.. I know I'm being bitter right now, but you can't treat me like this.. You can't just leave me like this.. You are not fair dear.. I have given you so much, I have waited years for you.. But you change your mind so quickly when this new guy came into your life.. This is not fair. Why won't you give me another chance? Have I never made you happy? Have I not proved my love to you? I need at the very least a closure between us. You can't just go without saying a word, you can't just break up with me without seeing me. I need to talk to you face to face, not via text. We need to talk about our problems not texting.. Because you can't see my face, you can't hear my tone.. And knowing you, you will misunderstood me. That's why I hate texting, I prefer we talk on the phone or face to face. Maybe none of this will happen.. I'm so mad at you right now sayang.

Janji Kepada Tuhan

I'm sorry I can't give you the things you wanted like him. I know he is rich, Just look at your wedding, it was so grand.. It was so beautiful. And your dress.. You looked like a princess, just like you have always wanted. But to me your dress seems a little bit tight, I won't accept that dress.. You know how I dislike it when your clothes are a bit tight, when you wear clothes like that in public. I think our nikah dress looks better. I'm sure he can give you everything. I'm sorry I can't promise you happiness in this world. I can only promise you that you will be saved in the next world, in the hereafter. That I can do.. I can promise you that we will pray together a lot, I can promise you we will recite the Quran together, I can promise that we will fast as many as we can, I can promise that I will wake you up for tahajjud, I can promise that I will remind you to solat dhuha, I can promise that I will guide you to heaven with me. But I can never promise you an easy life in this world. I can't promise you a comfortable life, big houses or big cars. I can't promise you that. I can't promise you that you will get everything that you want. But I will give you everything that I have.. Haven't I given you everything that I had? My duit komander, I spent it most on you.. You asked to simpan duit, I did. Most of my gaji when I worked part time at McDonald's I keep it inside the blue tabung. I also saved my everyday allowance so that we will have enough for our wedding. I only eat once a day so I can save more for you. I did that for you.. I did all of this for you, for our love. I know its hard sayang.. I know its hard to wait for me to have enough for the both of us. Its not easy for you.. You always wanted to get married. But for the sake of Allah I tried.. For the sake of menghalalkan our relationship I sacrificed so much for you, for us.. And I will sacrificed a lot more if you let me. Wallahi sayang.. Wallahi I did this for us. So we don't have to hold back any longer. I'm really really sorry I can't promise you a happy life, but that doesn't mean I won't try, doesn't mean I won't work hard for you and our future kids. If only you were patient enough to wait for me to try to give you my everything. But if he can give you the safety and comfort of both worlds, then maybe you have chosen a better man. I'm sorry my dear that I can't promise you Dunia, I can only promise you Jannah, well if Allah wills it of course.. InsyaAllah. I know its wrong me wishing you will come back to me and start over. But I can't help it, the heart want what it wants. I wished I could give you more princess.. You deserve so much more. I have failed you sayang.. I have failed you.. 

Just Like This

Remember that one time you asked me what was it like being replaced.. 

Nur

I haven't had a proper meal for 5 days now.. Survived with only a few slices of bread, and water. Lost my appetite again. Can you guess what is my weight now? I used to be 64-65KG, now I'm at 53-56KG.. I lost 10KG when you left.. No longer your buncit komander.. All skin and bones now.

Dark Souls

I guess maybe that's why I couldn't move on, I just couldn't let you go.. I'm truly sorry dear.. I should just respect the fact you belong to someone else now. I should respect you and your choice. I should.. I have to.. Damn this heart of mine. Damn him. Hmmmm....

Your Batman

I always have this thought running through my mind. What if she is not happy? What if she is in pain? What if she is hurt? What if she is suffering? I need to be there for her, I need to be there to save her, I need to be there to fix her heart again. I have done that before when that guy cheated on her, I saved her once before. I'll pampered her again, I'll manjakan her again, I'll take her places that she loves, I'll buy her cakes and chocolates again. I'll do all those things again for you my love. Remember that time dear? How I save you from sorrow, how I save you from depression, from despair, from your pain and suffering? Remember dear? And I will gladly do it all over again for you my dear.. It would be an honour to put that smile back on your beautiful face.. I would be happy to do those things again. Your dark knight will always be there to save you again. Kan I'm your batman? Hehe.. Your silent guardian, your watchful protector, your dark knight.. 

It Feels Like Home

We always think there is going to be more time..

Nothing Else

Sorry I shouted at You.. I was just so frustrated. I'm sorry..

Walls Of The Heart

Why do You curse me with such a heart? A heart that love so much.. Why? Have I not suffered enough? What more do You want from me? Do You wish to see me break? Do You want me to lose hope?

Princess?

What happened? What happened to that promise dear?

Blep

How not to care? 

Subang Jaya

Maybe there's nothing more for me here.. Subang Jaya.. You used to be so great. I love coming back to you if I got the chance. Now it hurts so much to stay.. She made Subang Jaya a better place. She made Subang Jaya feels like home. She made Subang Jaya a heaven on earth.. No matter how much it hurts, I would still come back here.. Maybe I'll get the chance to see her again.. I miss her so much. See you again Subang Jaya, see you again dear..

Mirrors

Do you hate what you see in the mirror? Because I do..

Stubborn Just Like You

I've got a stubborn heart for you, just for you. Nothing I say will change his mind.. He really really loves you my dear. And so am I. Guess where he gets the stubbornness from? Hehe

Mint

I want to love you without feeling like its a wrong thing to do. I want to love you again without that feeling. I want to love you.. I want to. Berdosakah aku mencintaimu? Berdosakah aku meyayangimu?

Better Start

He looks like a guy with money.. Maybe that's good. I can't always give you things you wanted, I tried to save some money to get the things you want.. But it will take a while. Maybe he can give everything that you have always wanted, maybe he can provide you with everything.. He can get you into a private hospital without any trouble. It would be easy for you to get a female doctor when you are in labour.. I can't afford to give you those.. I'm sorry dear, if only I had more money to give you everything.. 

Raining

The sky cries with me today..

Loki

The way he holds your hand.. It reminds me about us, the way we used to be. The way you looked at him.. It reminds me how you used to look at me, I used to be your everything. You always loved to look at me when I'm driving. I looked so focused, and you really like that right love?

 I hope you are happy sayang.. I really do..

Spoken Words

I want to talk to you dear.. I just want to talk to you, and not fight this time. Even if we have to talk as friends, I wouldn't mind.. I need to talk to you. I miss you so much.. I feel so empty.. I need to hear your voice again.. I miss your voice so much.. I need to hear it again. I know I'm asking too much of you, and I know it will never happen. You belong to someone else now.. Your voice must be his favourite melody, your voice must be his sweetest sound in the world. It must be wonderful to be him right now.. He can hear his favourite melody from the moment he wakes up to the moment he sleeps.. I envy him sayang..

Liquid Sword

Thank you dear for listening to me when I asked you to change your profile picture because your arm was visible. You know I don't like it when people can see your aurat. Thank you for listening to me.. I told you I would take care of you no matter what, but under this circumstances.. Its the least I could do. I wished I could do more to help, I wished I could be there beside you, I wished I could be the one that takes care of you. But I'm in no position to do so.. I will try to take care of you from the sidelines. That's what I do best no? Loving you from afar, loving you from a distance. I will always be here for you if you need anything sayang..

White Roses

I hurt my mom.. Mom really really likes her. Sorry ma I couldn't make her stay, I tried.. I really did.

Distance

"..and he was still madly deeply in love with her." 

Cortisol

Don't lose hope Dan.. Please don't.

Professor

I know how you feel professor.. I know exactly how you feel..

Enter Spring

We.... Didn't make it..

Winchester

"I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited..

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it..

I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded..

that for me it isn't over."

Hope

I hope one day we could meet again, I hope I will get that chance to see you again in the future.. And maybe this time you could stay a bit longer.. And maybe forever.. InsyaAllah Aamiin..

Hurt

Your wish came true today dear.. You looked like a princess, you looked so beautiful sayang. I could never afford such a wedding.. It was so grand. I'm sorry I don't have enough money to give you anything like that. You looked so so so beautiful, I can't stop looking at you.. But you are much more beautiful masa bangun tidur. Hehe

Vow

Remember that one time when you asked me if something happen to you like in the movie "The Vow", would I do exactly like Channing Tatum when he lost his wife? Would I fight for you back? Would I go through all those pain to get you back? You probably know the answer to that don't you?

Darth

Ya Allah.. Allow me to keep her in my heart and my prayers always. Aamiin..

Worst

Do you remember what you said to me on this day last year? You said that you may have feelings for someone else, that you may have fallen for someone new.. Do you remember that? Do you remember how painful it is to me? You said all of that on my birthday.. Well happy birthday to me..

Standing Still

There's someone else in her heart again..

Spoilt

Her parents must think that I'm probably a stupid and desperate little boy because I'm still trying to win their daughter back after all this time.. Always coming back to their house to give her letters/gifts and hopefully to catch a glimpse of her. Well they are not wrong.. I am stupid and truly desperate to have her back. Congratulations little fish, you are a fucking moron. Good job!