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2018-02-25

Wanting To Disappear Again

I have no place else to run away to this time.. Maybe I should just let the pain consume me all over again. Let it kill me once again. I'm tired of running away.. Tired of everything..

2018-02-23

Asking God for happiness this year's birthday wish.. In whatever shape, in whatever form. Just wanna be happy again.. Like I used to. I know it's not a simple request, but I hope it will come true one day.. Please..

2018-02-22

Hateful God

I think I'm ready to deny what my heart wants.. If only God would say something, or give me a sign or anything. I think I'm ready to let go, to force myself to not have this feelings for her.

Standstill

"Even if it leads nowhere?"

2018-02-21

Erased

Really tired of feeling like this again and again.. I don't wanna feel like this ever again. I'm exhausted. Trying not to make a big deal out of it, but it's affecting everything. Can't sleep, can't eat, always wake up feeling tired and sluggish. Can't even do my work. I just wanna feel fine again..

2018-02-18

Grasping King

Was it a mistake trying to move on? Was it a mistake trying to forget the past? Was it a mistake trying to find someone else? Was it a mistake trying to be happy again? To feel alive again? Was it not the right thing to do? Why am I being punished for it? Is there a choice that will not hurt me? Can I have a moment of peace? Why does it feel like every choice I've made is the wrong one? I really do need Your help, Your guidance. I'm at a standstill.. And I wished to keep moving forward.

2018-02-17

Deep And Meaningless

"The depth of your love today will be the depth of your wound tomorrow.."

2018-02-15

Death Becomes Him

Every time I saw you, my heart wants to grab hold onto you. Every time I saw your face, my heart reaches out to you. It wants you so bloody much.. Trying so hard to deny what it wants. Forcing this heart of mine to let go and to forget. I'm trying girl.. Please give me a bit more time.

2018-02-13

Sinking Garden

Let her go Fish.. If you love her, then let her go.

2018-02-12

Familiar Feeling

Though it's not killing me anymore, it still hurts.

2018-02-11

Dear David

This heart is still capable of feeling pain..

2018-02-10

Bear The Brunt

Trying to go through this test, this pain better than I did before. Trying to accept whatever God had plan for me. Trying to be better. Trying to do better.