In Ruin

A bitter victory..

Hearts Of Stone

I've loved you more than he ever could, more than he ever will. I have gone through so much because of you and yet I still love you, I still care for you. I won, I have won this love but I have lost so much in the process. I feel so empty. This victory felt more like a lost. I would rather lose everything else rather than to lose you.

Hang Yourself

..And he fails every single day. He fell on his knees every single night.

Passion

One is having the time of her life, while the other one is trying to survive every day without breaking apart.

Morning Star

The love and respect you deserved..

Ursine

"These scars long have yearned for your tender caress.."

All I Ever Wanted

..And I'll always be at my worst.

Project Village

I no longer have the mood to go to class. I don't know how many class I have skipped. I just don't have mood to go class. It's not because I couldn't wake up. I just don't have the mood.. I couldn't focus in class. I couldn't even think properly. I might just have to extend another sem I guess. I wished I could just stop, I don't want to study anymore. I'm tired of all the bullshits. There goes my future I guess.. This pain is going to destroy that future.

Of Blood And Wine

Maybe I should listen to my demons.. Maybe I should do what they asked of me. I should hurt you as well, I should blackmail you, I should humiliate you, I should make you suffer, I should destroy you. Maybe I should listen instead of ignoring them.. But you know I won't kan? You know how much I love you.. I can't never hurt you. I don't know how long more I would last. They kept whispering to me to do it. They want me to hurt you back. I'm afraid one day I will succumb to their will. I'm afraid that one day I may not be able to resist the temptation. Pray that I won't, pray that I won't love.. Pray that I will always be strong, that I will not fall to their evil deeds. I want this love to be pure and meaningful. I don't want to taint this love with more pain and suffering.. Enough tears have been shed.

Waiting

I deserve a bloody explanation from you.

Hollow Sails

I'm staring at blank pages again.. I'm trying to write something, something to express myself. Nothing came out but tears. Nothing came out, only tears. I can't seem to find the words to write. So here I am still staring at blank pages again.

Hood

How can you be so cruel to me? What really happened to the old you? To the old Meera? To my princess? What happened to that sweet little princess I once knew? 

When The Clock

Why won't you stay? How could you do this me.. How could you..

Paint The Lake

I feel like exploding.. I don't know if I can hold all of it any longer. I might burst, I feel like bursting. Maybe one day I will. Maybe one day I will finally explode.

Storm

Yeah.. If only..

Different Path

I could be the happiest man on earth right now..  We could have everything. If only. 

Road Taken

I spoiled her way too much I guess..

Kindergarten

Remember this road love? The road I take every day to pick you up from work.. When you were still a kindergarten teacher. Your house wasn't far from your work place, but I still want to pick you up from work. Sometimes I would send you to work as well. Remember love? The sacrifices I made to keep you happy? Of course you don't..

East

I shouldn't have continue my studies. I shouldn't have taken my degree.. I should have just go and find a job. I might be the happiness man on earth right now if I have taken a different path back then. I regret this decision so much.. Maybe you would stay if I have money. You might still be with me now. I regret this choice so badly.. The worst decision I've made in my entire life.

Thousand Foot

Let me breathe you in..

The Chase

When I get what I want. When she is finally mine..

Beholder's Eyes

When will it get better.. When will the pain end..

Man-Made

Wills of steel

Cease

..Or maybe me, I wished I was dead.

Dematerialized

I would rather see you dead than to lose you to someone else. At least I could visit your grave from time to time. I could still talk to you.. I could still see you. If I ever miss you, I could just go and visit your new home. I could recite surah al-fatihah to you, I could recite surah yasin for you. It hurts missing you so much and I can't do anything about it. I couldn't talk to you, I couldn't see you. Wished you were dead sayang..

Past Life

I wished you would stay till the bitter end.. You will stay no matter how hard it is to be with me. We could be so happy right now.. I had all plan out. I don't want to tell you my plans, I want to show it to you. I have even found a nice small house in Melaka for us. It's a new housing area I think. I thought we could live together there.. Start our own life together. Start from zero. We could build our home together.. I thought you want that? Every month we will get a new furniture for our house.. It might get rough early on. But I know we will survived.. I guess he must be so rich that you will give me up just like that. You were willing to throw your dignity for wealth. I thought you were different love.. I thought you don't care about those things.

Urban Warfare

"Love her unconditionally.."

Fast

It hurts when you refused to give me a second chance, it hurts so much when you refused to start over.. I just don't know what has happened to you. Why have you changed so much? Is it because of his wealth? I thought you don't care about that.. What happened to you? I didn't know you could be so cruel.. Maybe I should be cruel to you too. Maybe I should hurt you as much as you have hurt me, I should blackmail you.. Maybe I should do that to you.. Maybe I should hurt you back as well.

Necromancer

I don't deserve this pain.. I don't deserve this pain.. I don't deserve this pain.

Everything Else

Not just the letters.. Everything else I gave to you, everything else I did for you. They all meant nothing too I guess. You never appreciate the things I do for you anyway.. Because to you, I'm just another worthless piece of shit. Just another maniac, hot-headed piece of shit. To you I only want sex and nothing else. I came to you only when I need to fulfill my desires. That's all I am to you.. That's what you see in me now. 

Poster Boy

I guess all the letters I gave to you meant nothing huh?

Forehead Kisses

When your lips pressed against my cheeks.. When your lips rest on my neck.. And when your lips met mine.

Into The Void

I hope you could sleep at night knowing how much I've suffered because of you.

A Way Back Home

"To miss something is the heart's way of reminding you to not give up on something or someone, a reminder that there is always a way home."

The Last One Awake

Once.. She felt the same. 

Once.. She used to smile at the thought of me. 

Once.. She couldn't live without me. 

Once.. I was her everything.

But now, she takes back everything she said..

Never Enough

One of us found something better..

Wolf

Saying goodbye when you are still madly deeply in love with her is tough. 

The Devil's Proposal

If the devil suddenly appear before me and try to strike a deal with me, I would probably say yes. In this situation I would probably say yes.. I don't think I can endure it anymore. It hurt so much. I will do anything to get out of this hell hole. Even make a deal with the devil..

Jason

The more I pray, the harder life gets..

Bloody Baron

If you could see me now.. You will see how much I have lost weight. If you could see me without my shirt on, you can see almost all of my ribs. I'm all skin and bones now, no meat.. I would probably get gastric soon. I have lost my appetite to eat anything.. I can't even finish half a plate of rice. What have I become.. You really really broke me my dear..

Demon Souls

Mom's right.. I have no soul anymore. Just another dead man walking..

Icy Beach

No matter how much pain you have caused me, this heart will never hate you. There is none of it.. Only love I have for you.

Sacrilege

Are you happy now that you have finally broke me? Tell me my dear, does it bring joy to see me fall? To see me suffer? What does it feels like to break someone that loves you so much? Are you happy now? Does the pain you have caused me satisfied you? Or do you want to see more? Don't worry, God will break me even more, because He is going to take little daim from me.. Are you glad that I am suffering every single day? Does it feel good when you broke my heart? When you hurt me? When you betray my trust? When you destroy the unending love I gave to you? So tell me my sweet little princess.. Are you happy now?

The Colour Purple

She made me love this colour.. It is a beautiful colour my dear.. And every time I see this colour I am reminded of her. I haven't seen this colour the same since. You made purple my favourite colour sayang..

Grieve

Do you ever talk to God about me? Have you ever prayed to God for me? 

Go Back

But that dream was nigh impossible for this little boy to capture it.. He wasn't good enough. He wasn't good enough for her..

Scared Of The Light

She was more than I could ever have dreamed..

Monte Cristo

"God will give me justice."

4 Horsemen

Sometimes I make weird noises to make myself laugh. I tell myself a joke to cheer myself up.. I'm so pathetic right love? Well you did this to me..

Surfacing

If the devil were to make a proposal to me, I think I might say yes. The situation that I am in, I might just say yes.. I'm at my most vulnerable state right now I guess.