2016-10-31

Moon 8

"To be apart from a part of you.."

2016-10-30

Winter Space

How could I forget.. 

Seek Aid

You said you wouldn't come back, but then again.. You once told me that you wouldn't leave.

2016-10-19

What We Deserve

I guess this is how it feels like to lose hope. This is how it feels like to give up.

2016-10-17

Addictum

I gave you something for your birthday. It would be waiting for you at home.. Well if your mother doesn't throw it away that is. It is something I know you would like. Remember that one night I came to your house, you gave me this thing from your balcony and that thing hit my face. Can you remember love?

2016-10-16

Mass Recall

The bad dreams makes you never want to sleep again and the good ones makes you want to keep on dreaming and never wanting to wake up.

Antiga Prime

Had a good dream today.. But it was only a dream. Wished it was real though..

2016-10-14

Soul Journey

"Take a man's life and that's it, he's gone.. But if you take his soul, you get to watch him die every single day."

Made Of Steel

Prayed for death so much that God decided to give me nightmares every time I sleep so I can die every single day. Well at the very least I got what I asked for.

2016-10-13

Ever Since

I fell in love with you back when you were a complete mess, and I've loved you ever since..

2016-10-08

Unrequited Love

Do you know what it is like to wake up and losing interest in life?

Our Legacy

Happy Birthday princess..

2016-10-07

Altruism

"They will point out every single one of your mistakes when they have someone else."

I guess that's true.. Because that's what happened to me. She blamed me for everything. The pain that I felt is my own damn fault. There's no one to blame but me. I did this to myself. She didn't know that I tried so fucking hard to change my way, to control my anger, my lust. I'm trying so hard to make amends for all the things I've done wrong. I hope one day you would be able to see that.

2016-10-06

Burning Daylight

One of our friends needed some money, and I lend her some. Didn't do it because I care. I did it because I was hoping that God will see it. I was hoping that God will help me in return, maybe God will grant me that one wish. Been helping people for that reason lately. Not because I care. Maybe I was just being selfish.. And maybe I should. I used the money that I kept for us, I hope you don't mind.

2016-10-05

Dune City

Had to say goodbye to someone I want to spend my whole life with.

2016-10-03

In Another Life

"Never planned that one day I'd be losing you..."

Caress

I miss your touch..

2016-10-02

Neverland

This is how I want to remember you..

Hegira

I had you to escape from my bad days.. Now I don't know where to go to feel good again. Sometimes I wish I could just run away from everything, but I don't have a place to run away to. If only I got the money to just get a place somewhere in this world..

2016-10-01

Hello Autumn

If only there's a way for me to lie to myself.. I can lie to the whole world, and maybe even God. I could say that I'm perfectly fine. I could act, pretend that I'm fine. But I'm sicked of pretending. I'm so fucking tired of pretending.

2016-09-30

Smoke Screen

"Force your heart to not care, force the love out of your heart. Force yourself even if it destroy who you are."

Izanagi

You're the one that I should just gave up, not my studies. But it is so hard to continue when your heart is no longer in it. Should have listened to your father, should have just taken a job. We could still be together. We could be so happy right now.. I could be happy.

2016-09-27

Tulip Breaker

People change.. Especially those that said they're not gonna.

2016-09-05

Sensual


This room, this bed, that night.. Do you remember love?


2016-08-20

We Will Find Her

At least they get to talk about their problems.. They get to meet and talk it out. I didn't get the chance,.. The chance to meet you and talk to you about our problems. You know how much I hate talking through whatsapp or phone calls. I want us to meet, so we can talk face-to-face. You could see my face, you could see my expression, you could hear my tone.. You will know how sorry I am. That I'm sorry for everything.. That I'm sorry I hurt you. That I still love you, that I still want us to be together. We could be so happy right now.. You and me. I know we can make it, we can survive this. I want us to talk.. But why did you have to go, why you leave without saying goodbye.. Why won't you talk to me.. Why won't you talk to me love.. Don't I deserve the chance? We were about to get married.. We should talk about problems face-to-face. We are not nobody to each other, we are everything to each other. We should have talked. But why you refuse to do so? Why won't you talk to me?

2016-08-02

I Fit

Couldn't write here for a while.. Laptop's broken again

2016-07-20

Back In Time

Home isn't a place..

2016-07-19

Dead Mine

When I said forever, I meant it. Maybe one day you will see. 

Empty Husk Of A Man

The only real emotion I show is at 0330 and on my praying mat. In the position closest to the one that runs the world. Asking, wanting, wishing, hoping, longing, yearning, begging.

2016-07-18

Heal

"How is it you never noticed that you are slowly killing me.."

Diamond Back

"I wonder to myself what would happen if you messaged me. I slightly hope I’ll hear from you with an apology, an explanation, something to give me a little peace of mind. But I don’t know if I’ll get that, ever."

Space Man

I think I'm the girl in our relationship, in this relationship. I feel like I'm one of those girls that lost their virginity to a guy. After what we have gone through together, after what we did together, I want to be responsible. I did all of those things to you, I did that.. And I want to fucking be responsible for it. Does he know what we did together all those nights together? 

Early Riser

"The ones who are hurt the most after a break up are the ones that invested the most time and energy when they are in a relationship."

2016-07-17

Cyber Punk

I miss having your hand in mine..

Cloak Feelings

I have been dreaming about you a lot lately, about us actually. I dreamt that I tried so hard to make you stay, I dreamt about that night we dance together in that room, I dreamt that I was your family once again, I dreamt about all those nights together, all those things we did. I would love to tell you all about my dreams.. But I know you don't care anymore. Having so many things to say but no one to tell it to. I wished you would be there for me, wished you are here to hear me out.. I need you right now love.

2016-07-15

Snow Patrol

"Fate wasn't supposed to hurt, love wasn't supposed to hurt."

Advisor

We drank from the same cup, we ate from the same plate, we have slept on the same bed together.. And here I thought I knew you.

2016-07-14

Corvo

Wanting you to stay may be a bit too much I guess. I'm asking too much of you it seems.

2016-07-13

Titan Valley

“She had tricked him. She had made him leave his old self behind and come into her world, and then before he was really at home in it but too late to go back, she had left him stranded there–like an astronaut wandering about on the moon. Alone.”

2016-07-12

Down We Go

She was once the light that save me from this darkness..

Just Because

Please remember dear..

2016-07-11

Great Expectations

“I loved her against reason, against promise, against peace, against hope, against happiness, against all discouragement that could be.”

2016-07-10

Suicidal Atmosphere

I will never regret meeting you. I regretted not finding the right words to make you stay. I tried, I did. I tried so hard to make you stay, to win you back. All the messages, all the letters, all the gifts. I regret not finding the right words that will make you stay. My greatest regrets. 

Caught Off Guard

I hope one day I will find the love that I have lost. I hope she will still be out there somewhere. I hope one day I will find her and bring her home. Please wait for me dear.. I will be there soon. I promise.

Don't Leave Me Again

You do know how much I hate goodbyes. I rarely say that when we part ways, I would always say, "See you again soon." I even hate the word goodbye. 

2016-07-09

Don't Cry

Please come find me if you are hurting. Please come back to me if you are hurt. I promise I will take good care of you. I will keep you safe. I will try to fix your heart again. I promise dear. Please come and ask my help. I will be there for you. Don't forget me. I'll take good care of you sayang, I will sayang. Remember my number, call me whenever you want. I promise I will be there. Let me help you.. Please let me help you.